The Mental Downloads: A Journey Beyond This World

Alright, here goes — I’m about to share something that feels so out there, I barely admit it to myself. Sometimes I wonder if I have an incredibly vivid imagination, or if something else is happening. For nearly two years now, I’ve been receiving what feels like mental downloads — information, images, feelings — that are so rich, so real, they make me question the boundaries of reality. Maybe it’s just my artistic mind running wild, or maybe… well, who knows? Either way, I can’t keep this bottled up any longer. I need to put it out there and see what unfolds.

This story begins during a time of intense desperation. I was eight months pregnant, with no job, no partner, and running out of savings. It was just me, my teenage daughter, our dog, and a baby on the way. I’d been through countless job interviews, even took COVID vaccines to meet requirements, and still, there was no job in sight. I felt cornered, isolated, and terrified of what the future held. I reached a point where the weight of it all felt unbearable, and for a brief, dark moment, leaving this world felt like the only way out.

But even in that darkness, I couldn’t abandon my daughters. I couldn’t bring that pain into their lives, so I took to the only comfort I had left: nature. I walked outside, removed my shoes, grounded myself on the cool concrete, and cried out for…