Rebuilding a Life in Roles: What Grief, the Army, and ChatGPT Taught Me About Purpose

I couldn’t stop the world when it fell apart, but I learned how to give it shape again.

Solitary soldier standing at dawn on an empty street in Italy, soft golden light suggesting calm resilience.
A quiet morning in Italy, where duty continued even when life had stopped.

When everything I’d built collapsed — my son’s death, my injuries, the end of my Army career — I had to learn how to live without the structure that once defined me. Years later, I discovered something unexpected: defining “roles” inside ChatGPT helped me rebuild that structure from the inside out. It’s not about technology — it’s about survival, reflection, and the quiet discipline of giving life shape again.

1. When the World Didn’t Stop

Empty military barracks room with folded uniform on bed, morning light filtering through blinds, evoking discipline and solitude.
Even in grief, the uniform still had to be folded, the duty still done.

A drunk driver killed my ten-year-old son on the Fourth of July.
Three weeks later, I was in Italy, in uniform, reporting for duty because that’s what soldiers do.

The world doesn’t stop because you lose a child. Ask anyone who’s been through it — you still have to show up. You still have to work, eat, sign the forms, take the orders. There’s no “grief leave” long enough to make it make sense.

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