By skyforbes I have lead a very relationship focused life the past 6 or so years. And it has not been great. I have zero friends socially. I have a great friend at work. And my wife. Who is not interested in my interests. I used to online game a lot 20 years ago. I still talk to friend on socials that I've met on Xbox live. But my time has dragged me away from that and into darker territory. Step children with severe mental issues I'm not equipped to deal with. So I started leaning into retro gaming. To being back myself, to myself. A midlife crisis you may say. I've been playing the older Battlefields. Having a lot of fun. Purchased a headset. Haven't really talked to anyone. After that it got to be too much at home and I had to move out. In therapy I've been in the last few years I've been told it's ok to be selfish. So I left. I have what I always feel is a tenuos relationship with my. That keeps her from coming over. Which is my anxiety telling me that. We have all witnessed explosive incidents and holidays ruined with the others in the house. So I feel lightness coming back. A nice couple to help me get on my feet. A retired marine who wants me to succeed. It's a shithole but it's MY shithole. I did it. I got out. I can breath. My shoulders aren't tensed. My daughter can go to her room. My dog MY DOG. The ET to my Elliott. From the moment I adopted her she has fought anyone around me. We love each other fiercly. So I'm in my new quiet place. I start gaming more. My coworker/best friend invites me to play with he and his brother. All the same age. Let me tell you. This camaradarie is what I missed. Having friends. Talks. Laughs. The laughs. That's what hit me like a lightning bolt from the past. It's been a god send on not just mine but the other in the group. The community. The timing to play. I've cried several times because the darkness had taken this away. But I'm back. We're back. I couldn't be happier. If anyone wants in on this, just message me. Star Wars Battlefront 2. Battlefield 6. Lethal Company. Talk us into Arc Raiders. I'd love for someone to drag through Helldivers. Which I just bought. Lets go let's go let's go!