Really regretting getting such a big and colorful tattoo.

Posted here recently but still struggling with some issues. I wanted a blue rose tattoo for almost 2 years so I was confident in getting it. I had gotten my first tattoo (small, inner bicep tattoo) earlier this year and loved it so I really wanted more. I was confident in the rose so I went for it. I found an incredibly talented artist who specialized in color and floral composition so it felt perfect. He presented me the opportunity to work with him at a competition and offered a discount to do so so I jumped at the opportunity. He made me a custom design but I only had a month to sit on it because of this.

I was so set on the idea of a blue rose and knew I wanted to eventually work towards a sleeve so I trusted him and went with what he made. It looked beautiful and I decided to go with it and “go big or go home.” I got it in September and I liked it initially but for the last month I’ve been filled with so much regret, everyday I hate it.

I never intended getting so much color done originally, I was just too excited at the opportunity and rushed it without much thought and time to sit on it. I really wish I got just black and grey done now. It’s so bold and stands out so much. It feels like a sticker, like it’s wearing me and not part of me. It doesn’t feel cohesive and I have no idea what to change or add around it to help this. I know it’s amazingly done but it just isn’t what I wanted and I’m having a hard time living with it, and with how the feeling is growing I don’t know if i’ll be able to.