By skyforbes 
I’ve been waiting for someone to reach out. He was in my life, and my 5 year old daughter’s life, for about 2 months.
There was a lot that went on life wise between the 3 of us during that small space of time, but there wasn’t anything sexual happening between the two of us. We spoke about it and agreed that it should happen “when the time is right.”
He had a place he decided to go to for self care where he knew he wouldn’t be able to have the same freedoms he had when he was with us. I don’t understand everything about what that means, but what it’s translated to in reality is that I’ve only heard from him (very sparsely) about once a week.
If it weren’t for this preliminary arrangement of his absence, I would have committed myself to erasing his existence and memory from our lives. But he’s left some personal belongings with me, and some of them are things I don’t think he wants to leave behind. So I found some resources about attachment and one of the better ones keeps reiterating that attachment can be the enemy of love. But it’s soooo hard to wait.
I am noticing that the difficulty in waiting is multiplied tremendously by my casual scrolling of facebook and TikTok. TikTok is FULL of people who proclaim that “if they don’t reach out in 5 hours or more, they’re not worth the wait!” (Or some similar rant.) Facebook was the method I used to communicate with him in the past, and the crickets are almost KILLING me amidst all the horrible things going on politically right now.